Ok so I ran another 5K and it was, I must admit, a fantastic self-esteem booster.
It was 3.5 instead of 3.1 miles and I finished in 45:45. Improving my overall mile time.
My ego has needed a good swift kick in the rear for quite a while now. Lately my self-worth has been in the gutter with thoughts of:
I'm too fat
I'm not "popular" enough
I'm not a wonderful mom
I'm not a good friend
AKA I'm not PERFECT
Basically, I've been at the lowest I think I've ever been in my life in terms of valuing me as a person.
But thankfully I do have Karen.
A friend who not only has become a workout buddy at a time when Poptarts preceded pushups in my vocabulary, but who has become a support.
Not a support to lean and rest on, but one to push off and gain strength from.
She never tries to one-up me, or rub her successes in my face.
She encourages me to challenge myself, no matter how large or small the goal.
She's help me find something in me that I thought I lost long ago - the healthy athlete.
Well, I've chisled enough of the gloom away to see the athlete. Keep your fingers crossed I can uncover the healthy part over the next few months as well.
Here's so all my wonderful friends and family who keep me going!