Restless Heart

I haven't crocheted in days......

I haven't wanted to.......

I just got over a nearly 8 month long "I don't want to! (pout, pout , pout)" phase.

This is not good.....

As I type this I am surrounded by yarn.
An amazing smorgasbord of yummy goodness in every color and texture and fiber content imaginable.
It's as though a bag of skittles exploded in my office.

Why doesn't this make me happy?

Normally at this time of year I am happily working on custom orders for Moose Threads fans.
As soon as I got done with one project, another request would pop up. It was awesome.

But, times-they-are-a-changin'

Now instead. of working on custom orders, or items to list in my shop for that matter, I am paralyzed with fear.

I swear I can hear those unfinished projects whispering to me from the back of my supply closet, where I stuffed them oh so long ago.

The blanket that I abandoned 1/3 of the way through
The dress that needs just a few more inches
The yarn I purchased to make my dad a sweater.......2 years ago.....

Finish me.....love me......wear me......why don't you like me......why did you abandon me.....ME ME ME

It's a little hard to work with so many needy projects clamoring for attention.

Every time I look at that closet it's as though staring at a bunch of puppies that have been picked up, played with and then abandoned for the next cute thing that comes along.

I can only take so much abandoned crochet project guilt.

So here is what I plan to do.

I aim - custom orders permitting- to work on one unfinished item a month until I have them all completed.

Let's hope I don't collect anymore along the way.

Trying new things

So I've finally decided to drag myself out of my pit of unmotivated despair.

I changed up the blog and hope this version is a lot cleaner than the last.

I also created some brand-new items at the request of some amazing friends.

Here are just a few of these creations.

Holy cow it's April!?

Um yeah.....

Needless to say the past few months got away from me.

Hubby got home from five months at sea.
Fundraising gig started up again and so did my unfortunate bad habit of giving up regarding finding time for myself.
I gained all the weight and inches back that I lost - and then some.

And we embarked on a HUGE outdoor renovation, that was a long time coming.

And we're looking for shore duty orders. So far the options have been slim and unappealing. It's very scary not knowing where you'll be come next year.

Lots of stuff and not enough time to process it.

Moose Threads is dead in the water right now.
I've lost my desire to create and where once just looking at my yarn stash would get me inspired, it instead causes the creative part of my brain to freeze up like a nun in a whore house.

I just can't get inspired.

On a good note, I've been decrapping the house.

It still looks cluttered, but by making sure I take time out of each day to tidy up a little, it hasn't gotten overwhelming.
The closets are clean and organized. The office is clean and so is the downstairs bathroom.

The kitchen and living room are tidy and I am staying on top of laundry - as much as I can without discovering it's breeding habits and penchant for eating socks....

I'm not on top of the world right now, but I'm picking my way toward it one step at a time.